poetry, finally

Take it as you will.

Cement Blocks

Cement blocks line – ants upon each other
Situated between
Heaven and Hell

Eyes glaze over like candy canes
Does it matter?
How can you decide?

Me, her, us – you

The antagonist draws against us
Existence questioned –
Life and death

Spirit, self, streams, shine
Seductive, never ceasing
Wonder soul, wonder

Trapped among cement blocks
Line up ideas in your mind
1, 2, 3, 4 – choose


Understanding

It is as difficult as deciphering
Why robins sing their songs
Why white clouds paint the sky like falling pennies in the drop of an open hat

Do I even need to try?
in the end I think I know – you
I anticipate before it happens, I imagine before words are spoken, I digress when necessary
I understand.

I understand that I don’t –
see the world through your eyes, ears, hands, toes, skin
I wish to see dreams, beliefs, passions
I ask, you tell, it is an easy cycle
but is it?

So many questions left unanswered
So many movements –
given a second glance.
I understand.
but I don’t.

I know you – you know me
Is that too much?
I am scared.
Scared that no one will take your place – they must

They must break down my doors
as you have managed to.
They must open my heart –
as I have shown to you.
Vulnerable.

I need that – for me
Realize I need more.
Passion, love – necessary

The realization is looming
I must break the cycle

Why is it so easy?
But with others, not
Why is it so difficult?
I want to scream.
I want to tell you – I cannot

The words in my head do not match –
they dream, only dream.
I daydream, I second guess, I wonder,
it is not enough.
It will not silence – me
I must obey, regress.
Continuation – cease.

Denial.
Forgotten emotions – relive again.