We all have them. Those little pieces of information you keep wholeheartedly to yourself, or maybe you share with one person, or maybe you try to forget your secret - wishing it away completely.
Why do we keep secrets? Are we ashamed, are we scared, are we nervous, are we too proud to let the world in on our imperfection? -- there are a multitude of reasons. Secrets are in our lives for a reason. Maybe we keep them locked away so we remember how it feels to be cheated on by the love of your life, or how it felt knowing that you hurt someone you cared so much for, or that you wanted to keep that 'A' you earned on your biology test even though you had the answer key before hand. We are human beings. We are not perfect, we are flawed. That is what makes us who we are, and I do not believe we should be ashamed of that.
I started to dig through my secrets and I compiled a mental list of the top five most embarrassing/outrageous/idiotic secrets I have. I won't share them, because then they wouldn't be my secrets anymore -- the safe ties to my memories about why I created them in the first place would be set free for all to know, but I will tell you this: I have learned why I lie. It's a combination of embarrassment, insecurity, and self-doubt about myself. I think that is why everyone lies -- to save themselves from something; to make themselves look better to others; to push the truth as far away as possible.
Instead of my five secrets that are embarrassing/outrageous and idiotic, I will tell you two truths and one lie, and you can decide for yourself.
-I cry everytime my parents and I say goodbye after they have traveled to see me.
-I am afraid to love others as much as I know I can because I don't feel worthy for reciprocation.
-I hate cats.
What can you admit to yourself? You will learn a lot if you dig a little deeper and pull out some of those reasons for why you chose to keep something so close to your heart. Maybe it will make you think a little more about how you live your life -- it did so for me.
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