september 21

Hello blogosphere.

I want to apologize for not living up to any expectations that I set this summer as far as blogging went. I was very successful for a string of months, and then as school hit, I fell off the gravy train - my fault.

Coming back to school has been a whirlwind of emotions and excitement all rolled into one. Not only am I the busiest I have ever been, but, somehow I feel the most in control I have ever felt. Having every day and almost every moment of those days planned gives me this feeling that nothing can touch me, no one can change what I am trying to do and no one has say about what happens except for me. It is sort of like a power trip, but not in a bad way, in a way that I feel good about.

I love my apartment and my roommates, but I feel very guilty that I do not get to spend more time with them during the week. I seem to leave my house between 7:30 a.m. and 9 a.m. everyday and do not return until 10 or 11 p.m. at night - which obviously leaves little time for socializing.

I honestly cannot complain about this year with classes and activities, but there is one thing I wish would change, and that is people asking "why, how, are you insane?" sort of questions on an almost daily basis. I think that it is a personal thing as to how involved/how uninvolved/busy you decide to be in college, and if I want to be involved in lots of things and have my days planned out to a tee, then it is my right and privilege to do so. I don't think I need to get dirty looks when explaining myself to others. Just something I needed to rant about, but now that is done, so I can move on.

Over the past few weeks I have been really contemplating future career paths and researching ideas and careers like it is my job (HA - get that? I am funny, or at least I think so). Sometimes I wish college was over and I just go into the "real world" right now and start my life, but then I bring myself back down to earth and remember that college is one of the best times I am going to ever have and I need to enjoy every minutes, so I am trying to remember that each and every day.

I have learned a lot over the past few months about myself, and I finally feel like I feel completely comfortable with the place I am in and the decisions that I am making, and honestly, have never been happier with myself and my actions.

I hope everyone that is reading this has had a very successful start to their school/work year and that you make the most of it, because what is there to lose? Seize every opportunity possible, you won't regret it - I promise.

with love and hope,
Kelsey

thoughts at 8 a.m. on a saturday morning

Confessions
1. I am behind on school work and reading
2. I wish I could cook more often
3. Sometimes I feel like driving far away and staying for a while
4. I wish I read for myself more often


- I am going to math emporium for the majority of the day today so I accomplish all of the reading and school work that I have not done yet. Let's hope it is a success.

- Cooking is something I love doing, because it involves both routine and risky behaviors. Routine because a)you are either using a recipe you have used 100 times before and you know exactly what to do to make it taste delicious or b)you use the same mechanics while cooking: spatula, whisking eggs, breading chicken. Cooking can be risky when a)you are trying out a new recipe and you aren't sure exactly what the outcome will be or b) when you are trying to make something like chocolate souffles, which can be temperamental and can be disastrous if left in the oven thirty seconds too long.

- The mountains are my favorite (I would take the mountains and snow over the beach any day). Sometimes I just want to drive out into the beautiful mountains of southern Virginia and just stay a while. The thing is, I would never do that by myself because that is dangerous and not to mention I get lost just about everywhere I drive. To me, mountains mean several things: freedom, unrestrained, magnificent beauty. I feel that I am able to clear my mind and just be who I want to be when I am out in the open mountain air - feeling nothing except the breaths of the hills roll across my sun-kissed hair.

- I love books. Books are one of those tangible objects that I cannot ever get enough of. For some women it is shoes. Well, I do not particularly like shoes: I like books. The problem is however, that I never seem to have enough time to sit and read books (now that the rush of the semester has begun) that I actually enjoy. I would not say that the Principles of Public Relations is something I would pick up "just for fun." I need to make time to do that. I will today.





and that folks is how Kelsey Heiter thinks on a saturday morning at 8 a.m.